As we come up to the two year anniversary of Clint’s death it’s hard to believe that so much time has passed. A few of our acquaintances have fallen by the wayside during that time, but all our friends have hung in and I can’t begin to tell you how important it has been to me that you, dear friends are still here. Friends continue to feed me, entertain me, write to me, advise me, let me cry, making me laugh, but most of all I know you are as close as a phone call away when I need an ear or a shoulder.
Clint and I were not joined at the hip, we both had our own lives and our own set of friends as well as doing lots of things together, so it surprises me somewhat just how empty it is without him in my life. I know that my life compared to many others is comfortable, but it is greatly diminished with the loss of Clint. He added a richness to my life that I did not always appreciate when he was here.
 My emotions are always close to the surface ready to overflow at any small sadness- a sad song, story,image or simply a piece of mail addressed to Clint. I get overwhelmed by things I used to take in stride and when I do, I try to hear Clint saying to me as he always did “What’s the worst that can happen?” and of course usually it’s not that bad.
I am spending almost half my time in England now as my family there is very small and ever dwindling. It’s very comfortable there as it’s where my roots are, but Toronto is my home and almost all my friends are in Canada. Some of you who have moved far from your native land may understand this, but wherever I am I seem to miss the place I am not in. It seems to be a bit difficult to rebuild my life in either place when I am always in transit from one home to the other.
Although I love my house and neighbourhood it’s a double edged sword. I am sometimes comforted to be in the home that has so much of Clint in it, but sometimes that makes the loss very painful. I hope I’ll know when I’m ready to make a move and it doesn’t seem to be the right time yet.
I have placed the following memorium in the Toronto Star which will appear on Sunday December 16.
BOMPHRAY, Clint —
Since your passing two years ago, I
have a hole in my heart I cannot fill. I
miss you every day - my best friend,
lover, partner in life.
— Love you always, Sue

Thanks again for being there for me. As someone unknown once said “ I would thank you from the bottom of my heart, but for you my heart has no bottom.”

Whatever you celebrate at this holiday season, I wish you health, love, joy and abundance.